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Wow

2009-11-25T11:46:00.001-08:00

I haven't written here in months! Check out my new blog. PlumageParanoia.tumblr.com

NE-YO

2009-01-08T10:34:00.001-08:00

I wanna go to the Ne-Yo concert :( Hmn..

I guess you cant have all the stuff that you want. blahhh!

Ive never been so broke in my life.

2009-01-05T21:45:00.000-08:00

AHAHAH Literally. The year just started. I took out 200 out of my credit card for the infamous Jordan package not knowing my car was gonna have a $200-incident. And I didnt wanna take allll that out of my savings cuz I dont wanna think I always have the money when shit goes wrong. School is this May. Thats 26k, I have 15k down. I wanna sell my car to get a younger one (a mechanic said the engines gonna give soon) but I dont know how much loan I'll get approved for so that'll cost monthly payments. I need to get my brakes fixed. I needa get new boxes of contacts. I need to pay for our phone bills soon.

I hate being a grown-up.

And I HATE COMPLAINING, but dont get me wrong...I just need a few minutes to nagg about my stuff and it never kills my day. This year Ive learned to think of the brighter side without being a happy-go-lucky.

I love my life! I'll enjoy every second of it with the people around me. Thats all that matters :)

P.S. I think I'm addicted to poker =/ ahaha

Careless mistakes.

2008-10-29T14:18:00.000-07:00

School's coming!

TIME PASSES

2008-10-24T11:25:00.000-07:00

Fool me once,
shame on you.
Fool me twice,
shame on you again.
Fool me thrice,
shame on me.

FUCK

2008-10-22T23:56:00.001-07:00

my life

=]

2008-10-12T17:20:00.001-07:00

So I'm not working at my second job today, suprisingly. I've been piling up the hours for both but quick to spend my franklins to bits. I appreciate the time to write this, Ive been lacking TIME lately. It's nice to relax and enjoy a few hours to yourself considering I dont even have a dayoff anymore! They take my summers first, then my days off. Ha. Thats when you know youre growing up.

The sun's nice out, Id love to chill at a park front of the Golden Gate bridge. Too bad there's no one to spend it with. Another sunny day wasted.

Blogs are lovely, no one comments. Just your own words talking back to you. It's selfishly beautiful. That's all we love to be.

2008-10-12T16:54:00.000-07:00

I wanna find it. So potent it explodes a menage into OUR own genocide killing the rest, leaving the best, the only two on the other end of the bat phone.. cuz our 5 minute conversations from work would feel unbelievably fuckin insane!!!!! So high im getting off i-5 on a train to Dankouver, bout to smoke the dro that i havent had in Forever-double your pleasure, double your fun. Something like that, but I cant explain it! Cuz I havent found it yet. And I wish I would...I've looked up thesauruses, embracing the realness of its charisma as my passion grows secondly-Calling, Hearing A Rhythmic Insight So Mean

....

*wow just found this a draft, never ended up finishing it*

If you got problems,

2008-10-12T16:45:00.001-07:00

just ignore it and sleep it off! ahaha

I hate pigs.

2008-10-11T16:05:00.000-07:00

This is how my 30min break from work went yesterday.

"Aww dude your muffler is gonna sound sweet, lets test drive it..."

5 mins later...

"Floor it!"

*Vroooooooom*

*Weeeewwhhhhweeeewwwhhhh*

"Fuck."

B.u.d.d.y.

2008-09-24T23:55:00.000-07:00

Lay down, look up

I wanna buy you all those stars so each of the letters in your name would twinkle in the sky,

glisten as we look up in the same rhythm, bouncin into riddles

getting deep from fake

spontaneous with the pace

Lets run away hundreds of mileages away

Well whats a couple of hundred?

Whats an exclusive statement?

I just know you make me feel well

Yet, sick to my stomache

Sweet misery of enjoyment,

ironic timin!

So lets make our own time, re-wind

Think we've missed a few feelings from the first time

Epitome of a first time,

you aint gotta be mine

Just spare the moment with me,

b.u.d.d.y.

No apologies, no explanations

2008-09-23T11:15:00.000-07:00

No apologies, no explanations
Why should I? Never pursuing,
just
acting on feelings
just
free-wheelin
just
free-fallin
Just like half of you bitches
every second youre breathing
I used to believe in logic til I realized
I like making my own rules!
So rude...
Oh shoots,
Well I'm glad I aint stressin it like you!
Right dude?
Guess Im just stuck in a rut,
numb to my fuck!
Well, fuck!
Just speaking with my heart.
Fuck thinking, just free-fallin

If Im sure about one thing in life,

2008-09-18T00:27:00.000-07:00

it'd have to be that HERFECTIONS got the most humble, freshest music in the fuckin galaxy! Yessss, thank you Heather =]

___________________________

Im sick of writing. Fuck writing. You get a good start, ponder on your sorryass emotions, and wonder why youre fuckin writing. Fuckin pathetic ass. You just remind me of a bad day. Lifes too short to ponder over sorry shit. Im sick of it. Im gonna start writing about bunnies, pink skies and rainbow lollipops. Fuck it.

I <3 sneakers.

2008-08-17T20:35:00.001-07:00

Damn, I got four damn hellovagoodass deals this month on some kicks. Ungh! Cant wait to rock them shit!

Best Invention on Earth!

2008-08-10T22:23:00.000-07:00

I thought the best invention on Earth were tampons,

but gloves are!!! Woohoo!

I love cancer sticks <3

They make me whole.

Logic.

2008-08-04T17:24:00.001-07:00

Wow, I dont understand people's fuckin logic sometimes.
Ha. And Im sick of tryin to pick their fuckin brains.

5 minutes

2008-07-31T23:56:00.001-07:00

is all I want after a hard day's work. Just a 5 minute conversation.

Whatever, I've been feeling numb lately so Im gonna go get myself two extra jobs cuz Im

Strictly paypachasin, fuckhoes
get money-...makin, no rents-spoilin;
my-shits-legit, so O-fficial for quits
play hard by bits, stay focused to spit.
8 hours is shit! 8 dollas, forbid!
damn lifes so quick to spend money in pits!
ill savor my wrists. ill jusss
bake bread like i gave head;
split in half add cheese for some tastin
guap for Jordan hastin
niggas gotta feed for what they waitin
i put on for my Franklins
like niggas do for them diamonds!
shit, let that
"uzi n the army linin,
that shorty doo-wop rolling oo-wop in the park reclinin"
Breathe.
You Cant Stop Us Now cuz
Nothin Last Forever.
I'll creep for my keeps if i got to, forever.

"Even if i fell, I land on a bunch of money" -Cawtahh!

ahaha stupid freestyle. Yo dude Nasir seriously make me wanna hit a cypher! Even if my impulse aint that quick, have you heard the new LP? If you dont, well youre missin out on some history cuz Im dummy stuck on that shit!! And its inspiring. He's my favorite story-teller, no joke.

Hands

2008-07-30T11:05:00.000-07:00

As we grow older
we get better with our hands
if you really know what I mean.

John Mayer.

2008-07-27T22:57:00.000-07:00

Wowww...last night was a perfect Sunday night to be watching John Mayer live, with 20,000 people, as you hold your Belgian beer (I wish it was Belgian beer!) and garlic fries! haha Dude is mad inspiring, he makes me wanna hold a guitar! Too bad I'm lazy to learn new shit...I wont mind rockin the drums though, I think I'd enjoy it more. I think that concert was such perfect timing! I was starting to be stuck in an actual rut after being stuck with my own feelings with two different people. Besides, I hate the fact that I still have to work one more year to start school. What the FUCK am I gonna do for one year?

[ ] sign up at 24-hour fitness
[ ] learn a damn instrument??? eh? thats iffy
[ ] learn my Pharmacology book by heart before school starts
[ ] buy a flat screen
[ ] buy my own laptop
[ ] take my mom shopping
[ ] get a new wardrobe
[ ] vibe with folks i havent hung out with in a minute
[ ] keep in touch with friends as much as possible
[ ] go to gay clubs at least once a month
[ ] get my Momo rims!
[ ] go to concerts
[ ] start writing again
[ ] try to avoid buying as much shoes as possible haha
[ ] find more things to do to enjoy life!
[ ] last but not least stay positive and smile =D

Yeah, I know what youre gonna say, it doesnt seem so productive.. but I mean vibing with folks though is hella fun. It seems so...cliche...like Oh, Im gonna kick it with folks. But when youre in tune for a good conversation, its nothin like connecting minds with another person =]

And yeah, girls suck. No drama.
I think I've been in a relationship too much
I dont even remember the last time I was single.
I need a break.

Girls are like shoes!

2008-07-25T19:03:00.000-07:00

Girls are like shoes
you just dont know which one you want.